Still Sick

The baby woke up at 7:30am and I literally had to drag myself out of bed to get her a bottle. Normally I would have gone back to bed, but we had gymnastics today. I went to bed early last night, but woke up with zero energy. It was a night without recollection of any dreams, sound asleep, like the dead. I've been sick with a cold/cough for 4 1/2 weeks and it is still persistent. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to talk about my recent lab work. I finally found a doctor that is taking me seriously. He thinks I have Lupus. This is a scary thought, but also a relief. I've been sick on and off for so long, it's nice to finally have some answers. The chronic inflammation has caused permanent damage to my heart. I was recently diagnosed with mitral valve regurgitation. I am very mad at the cardiologist I saw almost 2 years ago. He refused to do any testing and said that at 23 years old the likelihood of anything being wrong was nearly impossible. Yet here I stand with heart disease at age 25. Doctors do not know everything. This is a lesson I've learned over and over again.